Insecurity

I hate this part of me.
Heck, everyone hates their insecure side.
But I'm no exception. Mine just wants me to be able to blend in, and not be noticed. But so many times, I don't feel that way. I feel like I'm the awkward different one of a couple different groups. I mean, I know I belong to Jesus, and no one else, but... I WANT to belong to other people. I want to be part of the group, and just be another guy, not the awkward person I so often see myself as. If you were to ask some of my friends on how well I fit into their groups... Well I'd hope they'd say really well, but even if they did, I'd still feel as though I didn't. (Dangling participle? Oh well). Lately I've been over-analyzing everything from the way I stand to the way I phrase things.
Maybe it's just a teen thing.
Maybe God didn't design me to belong anywhere or to anyone but Him.
Maybe I'm over-analyzing my insecure side.
Maybe I just need to calm down.
I think right now, I'm just going to try and let God tell me this one.. and if his answer is wait, so be it.
I'll wait for his answer.