Sigh..

I feel like...
Just.. (dang, how do I start this post?)
Okay.
I feel like, I really, REALLY want to find my niche, like now.
I was thinking, at camp this weekend.
There's areas, where people just.. excel.
It's almost like, another world, really.
Think about it, a surfer who's never seen snow goes to canada in winter and is watching some kids play hockey on a frozen lake. These kids, are actually, really good. And the surfer is just.. watching them, and they invite him to play, and he gets a taste of their world..
Of course, the surfer completely sucks, having never played hockey before (let's just ASSUME, kay??) and the other people completely whoop his butt.. 'cause this is THEIR world, THEIR 'turf', in a sense. It's where they're excellent.
Now, here I am thinking.
At camp, I was people watching a lot.
I mean, yeah I made friends, but I was watching other people, a lot.
I kept thinking, man why don't I have THAT personality trait, or why don't I have his athletic abilities?
Now naturally, since God made me, He also made me for a reason.. But WHAT is that reason?
WHERE DO I FIT?
I really want to find one area, where I just.. naturally excel.
It's like, something in me wants to find an area where I can go "hey look, I can do this, and I can do it WELL."
I'm really sure God wants me somewhere creative..
So maybe writing or art?
But I don't think so....
Hey God I could use a hand, I don't have any idea what you're doing yet...