What do you do, when a person has hurt you, and still occasionally hurts you, but was unaware until recent that you didn't like them? What do you say? God says to forgive people 70 times 70, or basically always forgive... Okay so I forgive them (or at least, let's assume). Now what? It's hard to LIKE the person, let alone love as God loves, when they can still have the power to make me feel like crap. Of course, apathy isn't love, but if I'm apathetic at least I can't be hurt by them. And.. trying to talk to the person? Results in me feeling bad and probably apologizing because I hate arguments, disagreements, and general bad vibes between other people and me. Not talking about it? Yields me feeling like crap. If the person would just STOP, I'd be able to forgive pretty easily and just move on, but there's no end to it...
I want to get along with them, really.
But my personality type doesn't get along easily with cynical types who call me things that make me hurt.
And final factor in the whole thing, the other calls themselves a believer, but I don't see too much to show for it.
I need ideas, or inspiration from God, or something really amazing because I don't know what to do, especially when I've got 2.25 more years of high school to survive through with this person.
Tension...
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