Frustration

I don't want to hurt anyone.
I'm tired of feeling hurt.
I don't want drama or tension.
Too late.
This is a short post, mini rant, and a plea for help all in one.
I'm supposed to forgive "70 times 70" (I think that's right?) according to the Bible. I'm nowhere close to even 100 yet, and I'm still trying to forgive and let it go.
It's a little hard, when I forgive, and then something else pops up just a few days later.
Forgiving is easier when the person stops, changes, and actually apologizes (and means it).
And now that I'm re-reading this post, I can't help but feel bad, and think about things I'VE done wrong that maybe I haven't apologized for. "He who is without sin let him first cast the stone."
I'm apparently not casting any stones.
But I do want a change.